yumiko's place to think

*walks in an sit down on a chair*
crap wats wrong with me an i there forth a coward of my own thoughts am i givin in to what i think is right how do i trully kno if i cant even understan my own thoughts im confused on my life an where i stand in it i feel as tho i am invisable an nothing can take a part from me if that so was the case then how come i feel so alive bt so damagd.......fudge maybe i am un-human an i dnt belong on this earth or this planet what will it take for me to understand who i am an where i belong

i dnt belong here

Yumi..what are you talking about?

*I poof in * why do you say you don't belong here yumi

*looks up*
Aeon kazeneku what are you doin here how dare u listen in to my thoughts?

because we care about you thats why

How dare us?

Damn how much pain do i have to indure jus to b happy how much sadness do i have to take jus to have the chance to finally say im happy i cnt remember tha last time i was happy as i look at my back c nothing but scares an bruises an i truly dnt kno why i even take this crap to begin with is it because i want to b free an i think the only way i cn b free is to let them constantly beat me til that red river come running down my back how cn i have the love i truly deserve it feels like a broken dream that i want to come tru bt is not cn i truley b loved for who i am because im missing a huge part of me an i want it back bt why cnt i be loved the way i love them back cn i feel jus a lil of what they say it feels like to b loved i wana feel like im flating in a dream with the person who loves me the most an i dnt knop why i try to convince myself that i cn b happy wen im not i cn bt on a smile an say that im happy wen im really not how dare i try to tell myself that my dreams are not real how dare i tell myself that i can live in a fairy tale of love this pain i feel is not the pain i feel that makes me smile its the pain that makes me cry tears of hurt an sadness i want someone to take me into thier arms an love me an neva let me go i wana b loved i wana b appreciated an accepted an i wana feel like theres no more pain in the world i want the person i want the most want me the same way i want him i want him to want me in ways i thought i could never b wanted before is it that i want more than i can receive is it that im askin fa more than i cn handle cn i finally be happy for once in my life i jus hope that when i BRAKE FREE from this HELL HOLE i call life that i will b truly happy an never drop another tear of HURT nor PAIN nor SADNESS bt tears of HAPPINESS an LOVE an FINALLY BEIN HAPPY is that to much to ask for?

*I walk up to yumi and hold her tight* I can't promise you fame riches and other things but you will always have my heart and thats an absolute

Listen to him. He's right. *I lean against a wall*

*I begin to make my fingers. A heart of Lightning begins to form around the two of you it glows radianlty*

Never doing that one again.

*looks up eyes filled with tears*
whats happening?

were here to show you that people do care about you and we are 2 of em

thanx fa caring bt i cnt get back what i have already lost

Even though we can't control time..or make what is lost return. Or sometimes even forget the past...We still have to move forward..make it better for yourself

aeon im trying bt i cnt make it better i've tried to make it better

yet again here i am with broken thoughts i think it times i greaten my power time to give my soul a rest